If I Die Young (Re-Vamped)

The Band Perry - Tennyson - Boat - If I Die Young

A couple years ago, I wrote something like this in my Facebook notes (Also entitled “If I Die Young”) to let the people I love know what I wanted them to do if I did die young.

Last night, I received a terrible news that my Christian Values Education teacher in High School had died because of illness. As in every death, comes the shock to every person that was left behind.

Questions like “Did he leave words unsaid?” “Was he prepared for it?” “Did it hurt?” “I wonder what it’s like?” kept replaying in my head.

That’s when I thought about the note in Facebook I wrote a few years ago and decided to post it up here in my blog and add some things up.

You see, I may appear to be an optimistic, cheerful, happy-go-lucky person but I DO think about death. In the jeepney, in the shower, in the few minutes between consciousness and falling asleep… I think about how, when and where I’ll die. Probably even more than necessary.

Anyway, so here it goes:


We did this before for our High School Project called “Book of My Life” which had a “My Death Plan” Chapter in it. Being a High School student, I filled that chapter with quirky to the point of being almost ridiculous death plans, but those plans were no less than cute or funny. 😉

My Death Plan - Book of My Life

“Book of My Life” Project in High School – Chapter 8 is Where it All Began :p

I kept some of the original plans in here and added a few things to spice up my death. LOL.

1. The Little White Dress

White Dress for Funeral

Aren’t these dresses cute or what? 🙂

Helena by My Chemical Romance Dress - If I Die Young

I originally wanted a dress like this! (Image from “Helena” by MCR music video)

Originally, I wanted a black dress to wear for my funeral. Similar to the one in My Chemical Romance’s music video for “Helena.” But perhaps because I didn’t want to scare kids when they take a peek at me in my coffin or maybe it’s because I’m way past my “Emo” phase in High School, I decided a Little White Dress would also suffice.

Although, I think a black dress would make my skin color pop out, don’t you think? LOL. Awooooooo.

2. The Coffin

In High School, I wanted my coffin to be black. But that was during a time when I sported black eyeliners, black shirts, black nail polish and black… well, everything. LOL.

Don’t get me wrong, I liked that phase in High School. But I’m a half- right here, right now and half- move forward kinda girl. And right now, I think a life with more colors is more fun. So for my coffin… is it possible to have it painted with a RAINBOW? Haha.

3. The Wake

Typically, Filipinos stay up for days to grieve while their loved one’s dead body is displayed for everyone to see. LOL. Relatives cry, talk about the cause of death, eat cookies, drink coffee and play card games.

Miranda Kerr Victoria's Secret Angel Fashion Show

Hell, yeah! When I die, I will transform into an Angel… A Victoria’s Secret Angel. Lol.

In my “wake”  though, I want something a little different.

  • I want to be surrounded by pictures of me. If possible, happy pictures. Photos that will remind people of how I was like when I was alive and not how I became dead meat. Also because I want to show off my photography and modeling talent. HAHAHHAHA! Kidding.
  • Let my friends see my notebooks, box of letters, trinkets, gifts, etc to let them know that I treasured every single Birthday gift they gave me.
  • I want singing, talking and laughing! We’re not in a friggin’ Library for crying out loud. 😀
  • I’m a Masscom student, so I probably have some kind of Audio Visual Presentation made for my funeral. My family will have to discover for themselves where I left it, though, but I have a feeling it’s in my laptop. Haha. When they do find where it is, I want it to be played and re-played during my wake.

4. The Funeral

It’s sad to think that most of the time, families only ever really re-unite when there’s death in the family. Long-lost friends appear, kindergarten classmates that you never spoke with for years show up… That’s the beautiful and tragic thing about death.

During my funeral, there will be speeches from the people closest to me, I’m sure. But I also want to speak to them during that time… through music.

I love music. Music is universal. It transcends through time, space, race and language. And for every emotion felt, for every life lived, every story to be told, there is a song that will fit perfectly. And so… here are some of my most favorite songs that I want to be played during my wake.

1. Time of Your Life by Green Day

2. Believe in Dreams by Flyleaf

3. Half Life by Duncan Shiek

4. Northern Downpour by Panic! At the Disco

5. Vanilla Twilight by Owl City


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 Have you seen the movie or read the book “The Lovely Bones”? I would love to think that my heaven looks like that. Although, Suzie never met anyone she knew in her earthly life in her “almost heaven”, I’d like to think WE will see eachother again! 🙂


Hopefully, I don’t die young. Hopefully, I live a full life. Have a successful career, meet the man of my life – my soulmate (if ever there’s such a thing). Have kids, travel the world. Grow old in a beach house near the white-sand shore…

But we never know, right? 🙂

No one can predict the future – not even the Mayan Calendar. LOL. But if that time comes earlier than expected, I want YOU to know that I had the time of my life.

This life of mine has been wonderful, crazy, beautiful and amazing. And it was a privilege, an honor and my pleasure to have my path cross with yours.

CIAO! See you on the other side! 😀

“IF I DIE YOUNG” by The Band Perry Lyrics

(I love this song, the lyrics are sad but the melody and the way it was sung sound bright and it has such a beautiful meaning.)


If i die young bury me in satin,

lay me down on a bed of roses.

Sink me in the river at dawn,

Send me away with the words of a love song.

Ooh ooh ooh ooh


Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother.

She’ll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors.

oh and life ain’t always what you think it ought to be,no

 Ain’t even gray but she buries her baby.

the sharp knife of a short life.

Well I’ve had just enough time…


If i die young bury me in satin,

lay me down on a bed of roses.

Sink me in the river at dawn,

Send me away with the words of a love song.

The sharp knife of a short life.

Well, i have just enough time..


And I’ll be wearing white,

when i come into your kingdom,

I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger.

I’ve never known the lovin’ of man,

but it sure felt nice when he was holdin’ my hand.

There’s a boy here in town,

who says he’ll love me forever.

Who would have thought forever could be severed

by the sharp knife of a short life,

Well I’ve had just enough time…


So put on your best boys, and I’ll wear my pearls.

What I never did is done.


A penny for my thoughts oh no I’ll sell ’em for a dollar,

they’re worth so much more after I’m a goner,

and maybe then you’ll hear the words that I’ve been singin’.

Its funny when your dead how people start listenin’


If i die young bury me in satin,

lay me down on a bed of roses.

Sink me in the river at dawn,

send me away with the words of a love song.


Ooh ooh the ballad of a dove,

go with peace and love.

Gather up your tears and keep them in your pocket,

Save em for a time when your really gonna need em.

oh the sharp knife of a short life,

Well I’ve had just enough time.

So put on your best boys, and I’ll wear my pearls.

If I Die Young by The Band Perry - Photo on Boat

drunk woman - psychology
Pickles from My Mind

The Psychology of Drunkenness

The Psychology of Drunkenness - How I Met Your mother HIMYM

Let’s talk about drunk people, alcohol and… well, anything to do with getting wasted.

It’s easy to spot drunk people. Look around you on any Friday night and you’re sure to find one just swaying (or crawling) their way home and singing “Why, why, why Delilah“.

Usually though, drunkenness spreads like a virus among the human race on special days like Christmas, New Year, Halloween and on occasions like birthdays, graduation parties – hell, even Holy Week!

But over the years, we, the slightly more intelligent species among the creatures that belong in the Class Mammalia, (Yes, I said “slightly”. Haha.) have invented more reasons to get wasted even on perfectly ordinary days.

Let me list down 10 of the gazillion reasons people use to get drunk:

1. Just got dumped by girlfriend/ boyfriend.

2. Just lost job.

3. Just got paid.throwing up on toilet - drunk

4. It’s the first day of class.

5. It’s the last day of class.

6. I just got my credit card bill.

7. It’s raining outside.

8. My annoying neighbor won’t shut up.

9. I’m bored.

10. I don’t really have an excuse, I just wanna get drunk.

Drinking can be fun, especially if you have good friends with you and the conversation, the laughter and the jokes just keep rolling. Not so sure about the morning after a drunken night though, but I hear a lot of people today exist because of it. LOL.

Whether my mom knows this or not (Though I really think she already does. If she doesn’t, I know she won’t freak out if she finds out), but I DO drink.

I started drinking when I was 18. Pretty late, considering most kids in the Philippines could easily buy a bottle of Red Horse from the store and chug it down like it was breastmilk , as the laws of under-age drinking and smoking in our country are pretty flimsy.

Anyway, so I have been drinking for quite some time now.   There was a point in my life when I was hitting the bars with my friends 2-3 times a week. (Tiny voice says: Please don’t judge me 😀 )

And though I’m way past my “sleep-all-day, party-all-night” phase, I have learned quite a few things. My experience with drunkenness is not vast, but from what I have observed over the years, there are different kinds of drunk people and I have carefully categorized them for the sake of this blogpost.

As to whether or not the following info could be useful to anyone, I have no idea.

1. The Mad Chatter

Mad Chatters lose their communication filters when they get drunk. Ask them anything and they’ll tell you what’s on their mind with no hesitation. They can even tell you their deepest, darkest secrets, including their deep-seated feelings, which they would never reveal if they were sober.

2. The Hulk

The Hulk, we all know, is a famous Marvel character who likes smashing things and has a serious anger management issue. Sober, Hulks are probably harmless and reasonable people. Drunk, Hulks could be very dangerous. They are easily angered and are often the ringleaders of bar fights.

3. The Englishman

The Englishman are those people who turn out to be fluent English-speakers when they’re drunk. Their grammar and pronunciation become flawless. Their words are nothing short of poetic and they seem to develop an accent when they’re intoxicated with alcohol.

4. The Laugh Slutdrunk guy laughing laugh slut

The Laugh Slut is a term I got from an episode of How I Met Your Mother. These are the kind of people who would laugh at just about anything or anyone. They will laugh at your lamest jokes, the smallest change of expression in your face and even in perfectly mundane things like a chair, a strand of hair or a plate of potato chips.

5. The Hornet

You might know The Hornet as a kind of insect. But I’m talking about a different Hornet. These are people who can’t keep their sexual urges to themselves. When single Hornets find someone attractive, they would probably hook up with him/her regardless of physical appearance or emotional attachment. Hornets who are taken, however, simply find an excuse to go somewhere private with their boyfriends/ girlfriends.

6. The Peacemaker

The Peacemaker are those drunk people who are at peace with the world. When the alcohol kicks in, they find tranquility in their lives and they just go with the flow. They barely talk, are easily agreeable to anything and usually sit quietly in one corner until they fall asleep.

7. The Emodrunk girl crying

The Emo are those drunk people who cry out of nowhere, with no particular reason under the influence of alcohol. Sometimes, there’s a logic to their crying but most of the time you will be puzzled how random party songs suddenly make them burst into tears.

Drunkenness or Alcohol intoxication occurs when a high level of ethanol (alcohol) enters a human being’s blood stream. It is a world-renowned un-inhibitor.

Vocabulary time:

  • Un-inhibitor – came from the root word inhibit, which means
1. To restrain, hinder, arrest, or check an action, impulse, etc.
2. To prohibit or forbid.
3. To consciously or unconsciously suppress or restrain psychologically or sociologically unacceptable behavior. (Dictionary.com)
And the un in un-inhibitor is a prefix which means to “undo” (Ok. I just made that up. Haha.)
Nevertheless, the overall meaning of un-inhibitor is to FREE all restraints. Pull out all the stops between proper brain usage and idiocy.

So do not be surprised my friend, why after 2 shots of Tequila, you find yourself standing on top of the bar counter screaming: “I LOVE YOU, (Insert name here)! GOD, I LOVE YOU. WHY DON’T YOU LOVE ME BACK?!”

Best case scenario: You will get kicked out of the bar. Worst case scenario: Your best friend recorded a video of you and uploaded it on Youtube.

So before you get drunk, kids, always remember the following:

1. Only drink with people whom you can trust.

2. If you’re bringing a car, always have a designated driver (someone sober who can drive you home).

3. Do not “drink and dial”. That means do not call your ex after getting drunk.

4. And lastly, answer this poll question:

Let me close this blogpost by saying that drinking is fun when you know you’ve handled drunkenness superbly. That means, while drunk, you didn’t get hurt, didn’t hurt anyone, didn’t get thrown into jail or did something that you will regret for the rest of your life.

Remember: If you go out to get drunk, please take your brain with you.